Tuesday, December 30, 2008


Concentrate on things that are real

Things of God and not of this world

Worldly hopes and dreams will fade

Along with the flowers that wither away

The better things worth thinking of

Are the treasures found in the word of God

Things that are true, noble and right

Wholesome and pure, lovely and kind

These things have virtue and deserve our praise

They are eternal treasures that will never fade

These are the qualities we should all long for

And are the lasting treasures of the Lord

For flowers do fade and eventually die

But God's holy word remains forever alive

Humble Prayer

Heavenly father, I pray to thee,

help me to love others,

the way that you love me.

Help me Lord, in all that I do,

to always be a reflection of you.

Walk with me closely, night and day,

so I shall never go astray.

Live in my heart, and give me your light,

that someday I may become pleasing in your sight.

Make me your vessel, that others may see,

your spiritual presence dwelling within me.

Walk with me Father, till my journey is through,

then by your grace, bring me home to you.

My Chat with REPO!!!

You won't meet one like the up and coming comedian, Repo. With his edgy humor and witty spin on life's everyday loves, battles and struggles, Webster hasn't found the true definition of comedy. Come listen in as I unveil the mind behind the laughter.

1, What is your government name? Imma have to wait for my student loan folks get off my back before i answer that one.

2, Who came up with Repo? What's the story behind it? The name Repo came from one place but has three different meanings. I let this female (typical start to a story huh) borrow my car and she didn't want to answer the phone when i needed it and it started raining and i was on my bike. So i called up my folks got my spare key went over there and stole my own car. Three days later she called me up askin WHY i took my own car....so i told her from now on call me the Repoman.In the bike community folks started watching me drink and how much my small but almost sexy frame could hold so they said "Watch out he repossess all beverages at the bar"Lastly but most important...many things were takin from me in life due to my laid back nature in the forms or opportunities and even self..and now im taken all that back .....are you ready for the Repo-louition

3, How did you know this was the industry you wanted to pursue? I really didnt know. I started writing poetry round the age of 9..just to release my demons..and im actually quiet in public but the way i look at life and compare situations just so i can understand them and put into perspective, although odd ...entertains folks. One day i got a phone call from one my bois in the #1 Stunnas and he just said "Repo get your ass on stage and call me when you get off and let me know what hap pend"and once i got on stage and felt the challenge and got to say what i wanted to say and folks listened..i fell in love...even more than the love for gin.

4, Were you funny all of your life? Were you a class clown? I never saw my self as funny just different with a funny outlook, class clown....um id say more of the class idiot who accidentally blurted out things or may do stuff to shock and awe my classmates just cuz i finished my work before everybody else.

5, How did family and friends react to your interest in comedy? I know we all have the "nay" sayers, did you have anyone who did not support your dream? It was a shock not because of the fact they didnt know my potential but because i was on stage doing it. I was always in the background and still like that so when they actually saw that i was on stage they mouth dropped. They thought i was just talkin shit again. I didnt have really any "nay" sayers it was more less "bout daymn time either that or get a crazy check. Im still thinkin bout the check though...times is hard.As far as coming out to support..kinda touchy. Its hard for me because the friends and family that be around me tend to make excuses why they never seen me on stage other than videos i sent them or they ran across. i honestly must say the most support and kicks in the ass by not bein on stage came from when i started riding with the #1 Stunnas. So when i finally told them i was on stage the harassing phone calls and threats to shave my chia pet stopped.

6, What fuels your material? Is any of it real life experiences? Imma story teller with a strange twist. It all started by writtin about bike parties and the way i saw it happen and what i added. Most of my jokes are real life through my eyes. I have many stories that i was told folks still read. I gotta email from a gurl one day tellin me that she went back and printed everything i wrote ona web site just so she could have something worth reading under the dryer. Life period fuels my material and my desire to bring darkness to light.

7, Would you say your act is edggy? Is it a family friendly show? SIGH um ....sumtimes over the top..most the time. Im still young so im finding different was to tell the same jokes to a pg crowd and not loose the effect. So i guess it depends where im at8, Do you feel you need life lessons to fuel your material? Yes...you caint talk about something you dont know about. Even if its somebody elses life lesson it teaches you a lesson and when you talk bout it lesson learned on both parts.

9, Let's talk about your latest project. I hear that you are doing big things. Care to tell us about it? Well i taught my sea horse ta fetch but other than that, the idea has been tossed round by me and a very respected entertainment co in OKC bout me hosting a comedy show two times a month the idea is still on the table so im not going to go too much into it but it was an honor when i was asked.Also me and one my boys are working on a script for a commercial that we joked around about 2 years ago and up and coming director heard bout it and said "i think it will be a good look..get back to me" ..so working on that as well.

10, Where can your fans check you out? They can find me at any cockroach farm tryin ta make a livin or myspace of course http://www.myspace.com/thatdamnrepoimma put one my videos back up on there but alot stuff i have on video is extremely raw so im workin on gettin better stuff out.and if i forget ta put the videos back up...yall send me a message my mind dont work to well, damn pre mid-life crisis is killin me...man-a-pause is real
CHECK HIM OUT AT http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQbEieTPRIk

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Someone else Likes Me!

My new blog buddy James over at The Tubman Solutions gave me a much appreciated award. There are a lot of great bloggers out there, but if you make it to my blog roll, then you are a favorite! He has titled it The Tubman Solutions for a great reason. To me he gives great solutions on everything. How to take care of your health, yourself and your mate! He even tells guys how to love and treat us, and for the most part a lot of it is correct. Every now and then he ruffles a few feathers but that is only to be expected with such a real blogger. Check him out here also at Chillin In The Tub to view my award!!

Thanks James!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Watch the company you keep.

Not everyone you encounter is your friend. Even if someone does something nice for you, that does not mean that they have your best interest at heart. You can't teach, reach, lead everyone. There will be a few that you will just have to keep in prayer and pray that they come to the truth. In saying that, please don't entertain foolishness. Just because it's not a sin doesn't mean it's good for you. There is a thing called a weight, weights bring you down. Remember that God can use you to bless anyone and He can also use them to bless you. Like I say in my email signature, "If you walk away feeling you've learned absolutely nothing, know that you've taught someone something!" That simply means not all lessons are for you. God can give you something that is sooo small to you but mean the world to someone else. He brings people in our path for us to teach and learn from, just as He does for others. So don't think that you are to reach everyone. He reaches them, you just do your duty and spread the good news and stay away from the weights and wrong doers. Two people on opposite sides of the fence can not share the same space for long and still have opposing views. At some point one will rub off on the other. If it is meant for you to entertain foolishness, GOD will call you to do so. He must call us to do certain things otherwise we will fall into the traps of satan. Only a few can go to the clubs to find and save souls, only a few can stand and preach the gospel on the corner, only a few can do missionary work in Iraq. We cannot choose ourselves. Let Him lead you. He will tell you if you should play with dirt, otherwise it will only get into your eyes.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


Do you have a love like this? If not, I hope life brings you to it. Tamia is my favorite vocalist. Not only does she share my battle with MS..she seems to have a sweet spirit.

What if.........?

My cousin and I use to play "what if?" when we were little. It's just like "hypothetically speaking" that some MIA blogger posts periodically. I have a short "what if" that I would like your opinion on. This is for the guys and girls.

What if you were happy and in love. For the first time you have contemplated kids and marriage! For the first time your lover is actually your best friend!

Tragedy strikes when you find out that your man is sick and in need of a kidney transplant and only have months to live. Dialysis is not working and he is still taking a turn for the worse. The only option is a transplant. All hope seems to be gone when you find out that the donor list is a yr long until you decided to get tested.

The doctor comes in to your man's hospital room and tells you that he has the results of the test. You and your guy are anticipating the results. The doctor sits beside your fiance' and says that you are a match. You drop to the floor in tears. Finally, you all can be a happy family!

The doctor doesn't seem to be sharing in your joy. He looks up at you and tells you you are 6weeks pregnant and you can not be a donor.

What do you do? You are ready to save the life of your future husband but he wants you to keep the baby.

Ladies would you term your pregnancy for your one true love? Fellas would you want your life to be spared or the life of your child's?

Thursday, October 23, 2008

They like me, They really like me!!

Blinders Off who shares my walk in MS has given me the award "Gratitude with Attitude", by way of Brass and Ivory. She is soooo inspiring to me! I love ya Blinders Off!

"Lisa at Brass and Ivory is an MS crusader in the blogosphere and she selected me as one of her dirty dozens to give the gratitude with an attitude award. I want to pass that on to you."

Here are the rules:

* Put the logo on your blog or post.
* Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude!
* Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
* Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
* Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

I don't know anyone with MS other than Blinders Off to give the "Attitude with Gratitude" award. So I will hand it to those who not only have great blog reads, but are very inspirational! My award goes to:

Let Me Explain- She has been my BFF and inspiration from the womb. There's no one like her!

Don- He reintroduced the love of writing to me..he is a great poet as well.

Potent Praise- A group of God fearing people who love Jesus and are my friends! Thanks for adding me as an author!

Natarsha- Teaching children in Korea while still running her Photography Co.

Christoph J- Teaching children in Korea and still using his inspirational poetry to touch all.

Tamara Angela Grant - Inspiring all to read and write. And helping those who want to be authors!

Raw Dawg - Philosophical posts that keep my brain workin!

MyBrownBaby- Great author who's writings are inspiring to me.

1. - Her writing is witty and edgy!

Free Spirit Butterfly - her trails and testimonies are inspirational to many.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Pick your Battles

Over the last year I have had 7 close family and friends embark upon marriage. 2 of which will jump the broom this Nov! So I dedicate this to all of you!!

The bible speaks of having a quiet spirit. Maybe I'm wrong, but to me that goes hand in hand with picking your battles.
Not everything has to be addressed or confronted. We have to learn what to speak on and what to let go.
This is good advice for relationships with children and adults. I had a friend that told me she was tired of fighting with her then 6 yr old daughter about getting up and ready for their Saturday errands, so she let her daughter dress herself. She was wrinkled and not matching at times but it worked and they made it out of the house in a timely fashion. Also, it stopped a lot of the whining and bickering. Now that idea might not work for every parent but it made Saturdays a lot easier for my friend. She picked her battles.
I have learned that even as a married adult, I have to pick battles with my husband. I know his pet peeves and I try to not aggravate them. But at the same time he must realize I will be me, and there will always be something I might do/do not do that he doesn't like so accept certain things. Remember we are consider "help mates" to each other in the bible. Rest assured, fighting every battle is not a help to either partner.
So how do I know what battle to fight?
First lets not consider everything a battle. Look at it as simply expression of feelings or just information. Looking at in as a battle all the time can result in a war!!

Ask yourself: Is this issue worth addressing (could mental, physical or financial harm result if not addressed?) Is it merely a pet peeve? Who would benefit from this battle if addressed?

Moral of the story speak on the necessary and let foolishness go. Not only will it help ease the possibility of war, it will help us learn what's really important and what's not.

Anything you would like to add on this topic or any others? Visit www.tias-mind.blogspot.com

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

State of Confusion

Have you ever got to a point in your life where you are totally confused on your next move? Some things come so easily, sometimes without a thought. Others leaving you baffled.

What am I suppose to do next? What do I do next?

If life could only give a manual. A book of directions to follow. Well there is. The bible!

But not all things need such heavy pondering. Step out on faith and do what you feel is best.

God won't always answer when you think He should. He wants to know where you stand.

So Stand Up!!!
Stop worrying about the trivial things all the time. Make a sound choice and ask God to lead you in the right direction in that choice that you made. He does tell us to leave our cares and burdens upon Him, but there are things that He would like for us to do on our own. He doesn't care what car you drive or if you rent or own. He does give us the desires of our heart.
Make up your own mind and do what you know you should do. I heard a pastor say the only time we are confused is when one of our options is the wrong one. Are we ever confused between right and right? No, there is always an option that is less than correct that we are always struggling with. So at the end of the day do the right thing and you will never go wrong!

Don't make life any harder on you than it has to be. Don't think everything is God and everything is the devil.

My life has me at a state of confusion right about now. Not knowing exactly what I should be doing. Hubby and I are thinking about moving back to Chicago. Will I work, or go to school, how long will I have to live in an apartment before we get established in that expensive city.

So many decisions but I know that if I do what's best for me and my family and keep Him first, all others will fall nicely into place.

Are you in a state of confusion?

Do Over

f you had the ability to do one thing over, what would it be? Would you change anything about you, your life or situation?
I'm sure we all know that even the worst parts of our lives are important in the molding of who we are. But there are still those moments where we are like "dag, I wish...."
Is there a lover that you feel you might have been better off if you'd never met them? Or a job that caused more stress than money made? A family member that you wish didn't share your blood line?
We all have those little regrets. A one night stand that you wouldn't dare share with even your closest friend?

Just for fun, what is your lil regret?

My biggest regret is not going away to school and majoring in my true love, Child Psychology.

What would you like to do over?

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

How to Keep a Black Woman...(in my opinion)

She can be emotional- Accept it, we can't be as hard as we seem. We have high hormone levels and the pressures of being a woman on our shoulders.

Love Yourself- One for sure way to love us is to love you! Be confident, flaunt what you are good at..work on what you are not.

Tell her- Yes you must show it, but it is also important to say it. Look into our eyes when you do.

appearance- You all aren't the only ones who care about it. Keep yourself up. Get your hair cut, buy some new kicks. Take pride in your swagger!

No show offs- don't put everything on display. We don't need to hear how loud your stereo can get or how many chains you can get from your local flee Market.

Educated- Its nothing like talking with a well spoken educated man. It's attractive if you know about today's events and a lil history. 2pac and Biggie don't count in either of the choices.

Take care of home- in every way you could imagine. Bills, and the overall happiness of your woman and your home.

Head of the house- this is a big one to me..being the head doesn't mean you dictate and bark orders...head of the house also means giving a role/duty to someone who might do it better than you. Just cause you are a man doesn't mean you can do it all. If you suck at house hold repairs, it's ok..HIRE SOMEONE!

honesty- be truthful about your feelings. Don't tell us what you think we want to hear. (unless we ask, "does this dress make me look fat") let us know how you feel. It takes a real man to express how he feels. It's ok to use words like hurt, sad and "I'm sorry"! You will be a happier man if you do.

There are sooooooooooo many more but here are a few. At the end of the day treat her as your best friend. If you are married to her, she comes before your friends and right after Jesus!

Feel free to leave word on how you would love a black woman or how you want to be loved.

Friday, October 10, 2008

If You Were Never Born

How has your presence effected your inner circle? Do you feel that if you were never here things would be different? Of course it would be. Not saying that everything would be so terrible without your presence but you have made an impact.

How different would your friends be if they didn't have you? Who would be parenting your kids? Everything around you is how it is because of the people. That mean teacher is being a little more fair because of you. That racist boss will keep his comments to himself in the privacy of his own thoughts because of you. Your mother is more trusting of teens because of you. But realize you also could be a hell raiser and it could be the other way around.

That woman wouldn't have that black eye if it weren't for you. That child would still be alive if you would've said "no" to that beer at the club. Not all people are positive but we all play a part in this world. What side do you play.

Would people wish you were never born?

Sunday, October 5, 2008

What is Your Most Embarrassing Moment?

Ok, maybe it's good I didn't continue my singing/dancing/entertaining career, because I have found myself running in shame from some of my horror moments.

My city, the city I love more than any other..Chicago! Yes, my city had me trying to escape..lol.

Remember that cousin I spoke of? Well, we decided to take our singing to the next level.

We started taking vocal lessons, well I took 3. 70.00 per week, I couldn't afford at that time. So I started practicing what I was taught from my vocal coach and my high school friend Tamyra Gray.

Anyhoo, my cousin and I sang everywhere! Did nigh clubs (another embarrassing story), radio jingles and even was approached by managers and other groups that were interested in us!

We were on our way!!

So I thought.

We got the opportunity to sing live on a cable access channel. Yeah you know em, every city has that crazy cable channel that is low budget and usually are some kind of dance or talent show.

We were one of the groups who were to be featured on this show.

My other cousin was our manager (since she had the degree in Advertising/Marketing). We had one family member as our stylist for our hair and wardrobe..we were doing big thangs!

Tease was our name...not in a sexual manner but because we were Tia and Tanesha and to spell it T's was lame.

We practice our song by Faith Evans for weeks and had it down packed.

We arrive at the studio and we are greeted by a man like Jerome from Martin.

Yes, he was looking at us like we were a juicy steak!

He showed us around the studio and told us where we would be singing.

We asked him if we could use the restroom so we could practice and freshen up. He showed us the restroom and told us we were next.

"We're first?" "You're the only." "what?!?" "No one else showed up, so you girls have the entire 1 hr show."

Total fear and panic at this point. An hour show! Are you kidding. We shoulda known this would happen, after all this man was also the 1 of the 2 camera men, the sound guy and probably the janitor too for all we knew.

We are ready to sing. We look for the "3..2..1.." countdown. And we are on! Only thing is the sound guy screwed up our tape and it started in the middle of our intro!!! As we stand there looking aimlessly into the camera, I desperately try to play catch up.

That song wasn't the worst, well it wasn't for me. My cousin has a different opinion. My screw up came on a later song.

Now we are told we would have an interview. Oh lord. We sit with the man who is the sound man, camera man and now the host/interviewer. It didn't go well. Every time I spoke I got a lecture like a child and everything my cousin said she could never elaborate when more was asked. This interview was such a bust we were determined to take the spotlight off of us by telling him our manger/cousin also had a great voice. He licks his lips (she was also a juicy steak) and calls her on to the stage. Of course she gestured she was going to beat us up after the show. She never came on the set. Mind you the audience was filled with 13 people...9 of whom were with us!

Time for our second song. "His Eye is on the Sparrow", which we hadn't sung in months! A song I was just learning months earlier. The song was going fine until I thought it was over and put the mic down, only to hear my cousin ad-libbing more to the song. So I play it off the best way possible..pick up the mic and keep going. Now we are finally done. So I thought, she is still singing the song that should have been over by now. So here I am looking silly again by putting my mic down as if we are done.

Once it was finally over..the audience was to come and shake our hand while the credits rolled. Our family was not prepared to be on tv..as my other cousin slides and scoots sheepishly past one camera..another one was getting her every move! So we were all embarrassed that day.

Months later co-workers noticed me from that show. The show that we hoped no one would see being that it was aired on a hot summer July evening at 7pm. Why was anyone home anyway??

My cousin has successfully lost the tape and it will never be shown again!! Lord knows I hope!

I just revealed my embarrassing moment, and my cousin's...what's yours?

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Where Has Life Taken You?

Are you where you always thought and dreamed you would be? Are you living your childhood dream now? Many of us aren't. I know I am not.

Since 3yrs old, like a lot of kids, I wanted to be an entertainer. My cousin and I sang, put on plays(wrote our own songs and plays) and danced wherever there was a group of 3 or more. We did shows for family functions, bday parties and all. But at the same time, I was the "lil old lady". Giving advice and always in grown folk business. Analyzing and singing is what I always did. I continued that love into junior high. I danced with a dance group in Cali and was on the schools Peer Mediation board. Still entertaining and analyzing. Once I got to high school I joined the chorus. Still singing. Even took some college courses on Music Mngmnt.

but having my son young and getting married young changed everything. I realized singing was a hobby and going to school for psychology wasn't in the plans at that moment. So I took some coding classes and continued on with life. I continued my love for writing since that was the only thing left of my childhood dream I had.

Now I look back and realize all my time is rapidly leaving. I could have completed two dreams by now. My cousin kept dancing in Cali and made it to some really good videos backing some hiphop and rap groups. My Chicago cuz/BFF kept singing for a while and has also put on Chicago land talent shows with her own production co.. See a pattern here?

Me? Still finding my way. lol...Feeling too old for some things, too young for others. I still plan on making my way to my Masters in Child Psychology and minor in journalism or at least a writing class. Pray for me! ...lol

Are you doing what you've always dreamed?

Are you saving the Environment?

I will be the first to admit, I was not considered eco friendly at all. In fact, I just became aware of the term in my early 20's. It wasn't a huge issue to me or my family 7-8 years ago. Now everything is eco friendly. I saw on t.v how a couple saves energy by blending their smoothie drinks on their exercise bike! Or on the news they suggest pouring a bottle of water into the tank of your toilet to save on water. If I'm not mistaken it saves an average of 10 flushes. I also heard to save energy you should wash all of your clothes early in the day, one load after the other.
Now I'm a mom of 3. I can not hop on my exercise bike when I need to blend my 8 months old food. Nor can I wash all of my load of laundry early in the day, one after the other. My baby sleeps during that time so it's more feasible for me to wash at midnight. I also can not afford to buy water to flush down the toilet.
One thing I can say that is achievable for me and my lifestyle is eco friendly Canon Digital Cameras. I am sooo not with technology but I am a mother who is always taking pics. After my hubby's constant advise to get with the "times", I looked up eco friendly technology and found the SuperWarehouse and that Canon has minimized product packaging and the industry's longest-running toner recycling program! I never thought of toner recycling as energy saving. I have always done it for money saving! I even found HP Laptops that are light weight and thin for as little as 400.00! My laptop is not light weight to me, unfortunately, but who would've thought lightweight and thin helps the environment. I also found a few other laptops that won medals for environmental eco friendliness. Even though I have a pretty good scanner, epson scanners are also good on energy if anyone's interested.
Ok let's be mindful that environmental friendly products are also friendly on the pockets. With the gas shortage frenzy here in Ga, saving money is a huge deal! I am a faith believer and I know that we won’t be here forever, but since we are here now, let’s do our part and make our gadgets and trinkets eco friendly. Especially if it’s things you are already using. So if anyone is interested in saving the planet or your pockets check out superwarehouse. Everything on it is eco friendly!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Living outside your means?

Going site seeing in Chicago was always fun to me. We would see Jordan's house, R. Kelly's and other Chicago stars. Funny how Chicago rich and Ga.'s rich are soooo different. Here in Ga there is no rich area really. A 200k home can sit next to a 799k home all on the same city street or dirt road. In the Chi you would have to travel to see the nice, rich big homes (i.e. Olympia Fields)Before my husband and I decided to move to Ga we were looking for homes in Chicago. We always knew where the black folks lived. Not because of the yard up keep, or price of the house, but because of the car in the drive way. For some reason my sistas and brutha(black folks) judge their worth by their cars. Every home occupied by blacks drove Benz, BMW's and Range Rovers. While homes occupied by white people drove Toyota's, Mazda's and Jeep Cherokees. Now I'm not saying all blacks but a majority of the young ones put worth into things that are not investments.
Why do you have a 70-90k automobile but live at home or in an apartment? Why is your credit bad and you can't get cable in your name but you have on more bling than Marc Jacobs has in stock?
I saw a show on lives of Millionaires and they all shopped on clearance racks, drove modest cars and used coupons. You can't stay rich when you spend lavishly.

Why do we put our money into materialistic things when our kids don't even have college funds?
Are you an spending outside your means? Know anyone who is? Put em on blast! lol

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Carousel Checks

Hey, has anyone heard of Carousel Checks? I came across their website and thought that it was pretty cool and pretty cheap. Well, I think 3.89 for a box of checks is cheap. Does anyone still use checks and if so would you use them?
I know we are in a paperless society. Everything is being converted to computers and plastic, at least that's what I thought. Not even a year ago something I was applying for asked for a voided check! Are you serious? lol. I was really taken back because I was told in order to be approved I needed one old check. Even the ones I had were from another very old account. It had been years since I had used a check. Ever since that happened I started considering getting checks again for "just in case" basis. I have checks now with my bank but I've never seen the variety that Carousel Checks have or maybe I‘m just out of the loop.
I've always liked photo checks but people are too crazy nowadays to have your face plastered across the front of your checks along with your personal info. But I have really been considering putting my hubby's business logo on it for his business checks instead of using personal checks.
I wrote my first check at 22 or 23. I was never a check person or credit card person. I always used cash until I realized how important credit was. I just started to build credit at 26 and I'm glad I waited because I would've had terrible credit if I had done it sooner.
Even when paying my car note they want the check number. So since society is obviously still using them, I might as well too. Only this time get the ones I like and not the old plain ones hubby gets. I seen some for sports lovers and even religious beliefs.
If you guys could check out the site and tell me if you would get them. I personally think it's a good deal and they are cute but again I'm no check writer so I don't want to waste my money. If you do order checks let me know how you like them cause I think I will. I would love your input and feed back on this.

Does anyone still use checks?
Would you be leery if a company took check only?
How much do you pay or what is reasonable?
Would you consider Carousel Checks?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

LaShawntanique Alize' Jekins

Ok I have revealed my urban name to a blogger, which is what inspired this post. When my mom had me, she probably wasn't concerned with racial stereo-types or racial profiling. However, I am very conscious of it and feel the need to give my kids a foot in the door and let their skills and personality speak for them.
Don't get me wrong, I named my kids Tyler, Justin and Morgan because I love the simplicity of the name...as well as the name period. I have nothing against a Snatinique or Shanique but does society embrace it? Do we care about what society thinks. I do to a point. I have to live in this society, survive in this society so I do need societies approval if I want a hassel free life. Now mind you, some things I can careless about what society says because my Father owns the society so I'm good!
Still, I dont want to fill anyones quota when I apply for a job or enroll in school.
I want my name to be over looked. I want my skills, accomplishments and training to speak for me.

Are you a LaShawntanique Alize' ?

Do you embrace the urban name culture?

Do you stereotype based on names? Do you agree with it?

Monday, September 22, 2008

Who are You

I thought I knew you but I don't

Who are you?

You are not what you perceive to be

Nice and gentle

that may be

but that doesn't mean anything

Who are you inside?

What will your eulogy read?

Who are you?

Not the one you use to be

Sometimes I'm not sure if you even know

Look in the mirror

Who do you see?

I don't know....

the reflection is me.......

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Office SuperMarket in the UK!

Ok, I knew the UK was popular for Paris (the city of love and shopping!) and London, well to me it is because those are my favorite cities, even though I've never been there. They are a lot like us over here. Except I have noticed that their prices might not be as good, but better. With the economy in the US going bizzurk the prices in the UK aren't looking so bad. I don't know about the retail clothing industry but the UK has a Office SuperMarket UK and the prices made me SMH!(shake my head for the new bloggers;))
Maybe I'm a retard but I didn't know they were soooo much like us. They don't have all of this weird high fashion that the reality shows say. I know with me moving soon I would love to have their products.

I got the scoop on Korea from my friend Natarsha, but I want someone to check out the UK for the retail, and when you go, please pick me up this computer desk. lol. I wonder do they deliver? lol. They say 48 hours but does that apply to Lithonia Ga.?
In case you didn't know, my hubby has his own business and I would really like to get some home office furniture but because I'm not working, (due to excessive blogging just kidding) I can't afford new office furniture at the moment.

I know ya'll think I'm wacky for ranting and raving about a store in the UK, but when you have been looking for something specific (like that boardroom table) and finally find it for the price you are willing to pay to only find out it's in the UK, that hurts. lol. My other pieces match that boardroom table to a tee! Oh well, maybe oneday I'll be able to fly there in a day like so many others do. Well none of my friends (wink). I'll just dream about flying over to the city of love and shopping. Until then, I will just sign up for their newsletter and browse the site until I make it to the fab cities in the UK, unfortunately that is the closest I will get to it.

Let me stop before you guys think I'm crazy but seriously, check it out. In person if you're blessed like that, or online and become a dreamer like me...lol
Till later, or until I find a job.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

"Mind Your Business Couch"

My 3 and 9 yr old boys have nose issues. They are the nosiest pair of children I know. Whatever happened to children being seen and not heard. Pullleeease!! They have no problem saying, "what was that", "who said that", "what happened" etc. Mind you, all those questions were never geared towards a convo they were in. My 9yr old is the worst. He will stand over my shoulder while I text, ask "who was that", once I'm off the phone and a ton of other "not your business questions".
One time a guy in the car in front of me was waving at me thru his rear view. Do you know my 9yr old (then 5) said, "mommy why was that man waving at you?" Are you kidding me. I was blown away.
The straw that broke the camels back was when I was trying to have a very discreet convo with my mother and that 9yr old yells from another room, "what?". I look around confused. He says, "mommy who's going there?". I had had enough. I told him to sit on the new "mind your business couch" until he learns to mind his own. It works great!
Taking away play stations and threatening whoopings don't work. But it's something about sitting all alone for no specified time that kids hate! Now all of my nosey kid visitors know the "mind your business couch". Niece and nephew. They actually catch their tongues now. Just be sure to not forget that they are on there like I did my 9yr old for an hour. He missed play time and had to go straight to bed..hahaha
If your child has nose issues, sit them on the "mind your business couch".
I threatened to put my hubby on it for 20 mins but that didn't work.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Sought Potential

Support my blog buddy and brother in Christ. Check out the trailer to his new poem movie released this week!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Why won't you love me?

For years I didnt care, the older I got

I didn't need you...

so I thought.

I'm loveable, I've been told that

And I know you would've loved me too

if I only had the chance to show you

Should I cry at my age?

Should I think of you?

I'm a grown woman with the heart of a child

It hurts

the older I get

the worst I feel

Do I tell you

Where are you?

I'll just continue to hold it in

and cry in secret.


Thursday, September 11, 2008

Cold Heart or just sensitive?

I, at the age of blahblah, have realized sooo much about myself in the last year. I am sensitive. I had to say it, own it and admit it.
While I know I can be grudgeful, it all stems from sensitivity and being hurt. All my life I lived for others. My sole purpose for working when I was young was to help my mom financially. I put myself last for others, follow the rules and always do what is asked of me, but as of recently it just started to pay off.
I have prayed about my ways. If I feel mistreated or abused, their is an evil me inside. No I won't hurt you, or talk about you. But Lord forbid you are lying in blood on the side of the road, I will pull over, take a look, make sure you see me, and take off! That's what my heart feels, or felt at least.
I know that I am easy going, easy to talk to. Never had any trouble with anyone in school or work. Like by everyone. Didn't start to engage in arguments until I got married and now that has even changed for the better. So for the life of me I can NEVER understand why someone would feel the need to lie to me or mistreat me. It hurts to think about it.
Hubby says it's those exact reasons I've listed that makes people afraid to hurt me. They will lie to stop from hurting me with the truth. That might be true in some cases but not all. I bend over backwards for everyone I know and never feel I get it in return. so it has left me bitter in some areas in my life. I pray about it and it's better.
Am I sensitive or cold hearted?

Sunday, September 7, 2008


Do you adapt well to your surrounding? Do you welcome change? Or do you stick out like a sore thumb? Some of us have the chameleon capabilities. Can you interact with all races, religions and both genders and still be you? Or do you change to fit in.
sometimes I think both are warranted. For instance if you are amongst your friends who are all of different religions, you might not want to bring up confrontational subjects as it pertains to religion if it's not in a religious setting. But at the same time don't compromise your beliefs or who you are.
I personally adapt well, however I do tend to hold back at times. Loud party scenes(when I use to party) I tend to hold back a bit because I'm not an advocate of attention. You will find me playing pool, darts, sitting at the bar or occasionally dancing. But you wont find me in the middle of the floor or on the table tops.
I'm a lover of intimate settings. No more than one back seater is my max for comfort level.
How do you differ? Are you the same at work and play? Does your persona differ from who you really are? Are you hiding behind your blog?

Friday, September 5, 2008

Just Friends?

Can women and men be just friends without intimacy or attraction for each other? And if they are attracted do you feel that the flesh is strong enough to refrain?

I think a few things has to happen to make this possible.

I don't feel you can start off with an attraction and turn it off to "just be friends". Especially if the attraction is mutual. However that doesn't mean you will be intimate with that person, I just personally think it keeps the door open for a lot of possibilities that wouldn't be there if there wasn't any chemistry. I know it is possible, I've lived it. Before and during marriage. I was closer to guys than females and it never went down like that.

If you are in a relationship how would you feel about your partner becoming friends with someone of the opposite sex?

Hubby and I said a long time ago that if this person came before "us" then they should stay around. But to come home with numbers or talking to the opposite sex regularly claiming you are "friends" when you just met might be questionable. Especially if they are single and you aren't interested in your partner joining in on the friendship.

Guys and girls use that term very lightly when it comes to friends. Meeting random people and calling them friends is just an excuse to talk to them and it comes to no surprise if these "friends" hook up.

Do you think the only way for women and men to be platonic friends is if there is no chemistry?

Pleasures of the flesh is deadly. Sex is everywhere. Can you withstand your partner having a "friend"?

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

I'm Back!!

I had a BLAST!! I went to a wedding of a girl who is like a sister to me. She is in my earliest memories, since forever! I'm getting old..this is the 2nd time I cried at a wedding. No I didnt boo hoo, but the tears started flowing because she was soooooooo beautiful. My baby grew up and is murried nah! Even though she is older than I. Well 3 down and 2 to go. I will go back in Nov. for another wedding to cry at, then back to atl for another Nov wedding to shed yet another tear. All of them are dear young ladies to me. It is sooooo nice to see them find the men of their dreams. Unfortunately I can't put anyones pics up..they are not to fond of it..lol
My cousin/BFF, a childhood friend and I went out for a night on the town. We went to Big Bowl, a restaurant that specialize in Chinese and Thai foods. We had the potstickers for the appetizer, it grossed me out. Doesn't it look like little cocoons?

This is the pic I took downtown on the "lady's night out" after eating at the Big Bowl. Pic isnt the best but you get the drift! It was soooooooo beautiful!

Even though I had a great break..it was time to return to the duties of a wife and mother, for not at least.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Bag Lady

There comes a time when we must let go of the bags. Someone has hurt us, betrayed us and mistreated us but how long will it fester? At what point do you take back control of your life and say "enough"? Bags are strongholds and/or things from your past that you have yet to let go of. Get the closure you need to release your baggage.

Grown children living at home, lovers disrespecting your relationship, or back stabbing friends, are all things that can and will cause an overload of bag issues. It leaves you bitter and unable to embrace the things that life brings. It weighs you down and you start to lack the luster you once possessed. Take inventory of your life and surroundings. Holding on to hurt and pain manifests in our bodies causing stress and other illnesses. Rid yourself of all things that are holding you back.

Stop faulting you sister for childhood things, let it go that your friend didn't return your shoes, let go of the fact that your boyfriend looked at another woman, they have. And while you are angry and holding on to bull, they have gone on with their life and not even consumed with your issues.

Ladies, how many times have you gotten into relationships that were founded on a crutch? For fear of being alone or the last one married; we keep our hair tight, close tighter, plaster on a fake smile and begin yet another relationship even though you are still hurting from what so and so did to you in 1996. But we wonder why our relationships don't work.

What if you don't realize you have baggage. Here are a few examples:

Can't get a phone in your name because your ex jacked up your credit? Baggage!

Can't park your car because you are housing your cousins bedroom set? Baggage! Literally.

Can't/won't open up to love and happiness because of a hurtful past relationship? Baggage!

All of these things are holding you back from something in your life.

How do you release them once they have been revealed?

One step at a time. This requires more than a mental action, it's physical too. Sometimes conversations need to be had, phone calls made, boxes packed up, items returned or just simply let it go and forgive. Not in secret, let them know you forgive them!

Baggage is effecting your life physically so the action that must be taken is physical.

Ignoring it will only pile on the luggage and delay any growth and happiness.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Look into my eyes.....

If you look into my eyes

you will find a young lady who has the ability

to laugh hysterically and cry uncontrollably

all in a day

You will find the jokester and life of the party

amongst her circle

Look into my eyes and you will find

I'm a mother, wife and friend

someone who puts others before her

loves those who angered her

befriends those who are different from her

brings those to tears in laughter

warms hearts with compassion and sincerity

but look a little deeper

You will find a young girl who still seeks approval

who's pain is deep and tears are shallow

but look a little deeper and you will find

the contentment of my present

the excitement of my future

the pain of my past

look a little deeper and you will find a young lady

who loves people

but wants to be alone (still tryin to figure that one out)

you will see a mother, wife and friend

deal with the curses of MS daily but ignore it

and keep it moving

you will find someone who will love so hard

til' it hurts

who has dealt with her own insecurities

not big enough, not tall enough and yes

not dark enough

Looking into my eyes will tell you

where I've been

the path I've followed

and pain I've endured

but look into my heart and you will find

where I'm headed

the happiness I' ve felt

and the journey I'm seeking

Look into my eyes......

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Over Sexed And Under Aged Part II

I am here to touch on this subject again. Why is this acceptable? Why do people think it's cute? Why do we become sooo shocked when she becomes pregnant at 15 or when he goes to jail for under age sex on a minor? Or what about when they have an over-interest in sex? Let's think back to this very moment when we are rocking grandbabies at 35 wondering where did we go wrong?

We have got to do better!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Obama Got Skillz!

We descovered he could dance on Ellen but who knew he could sing too! Pretty funny.

Saturday, August 9, 2008


If one more talk show or morning show speaks of this, I just might blow my roof! Frenemy is a friend who acts more like your enemy. (enemy in friends clothing)
The different levels of frenemies:
The black hole- always negative, nothing positive to say.
Queen Me- Will always change the story to make it center her.
Unfriendly Competition- Anything you can do I can do better.
Gossipy- The town crier, sinister, gossips to make you look worse than her
Comments of a Frenemy
"You look tired" A way of telling you that you look a hot mess!
"I saw your boy friend and his new girl she sooooo pretty she looks like model"-
"I'm sorry you feel that way, A half a** apology
"Those shoes are soooo you"-You would say thank you till you realize, this isnt really a compliment
I befriended someone like this before. She was the unfriendly competitor. If I got honey blond streaks she'd die her hair platinum. If I get a cute new boyfriend, she'd get 2!

Do You have any frenemies? Do any of these sound familiar? Put em on blast or just share your experience.

Thursday, August 7, 2008


Ok you guys being that you all are business owners, you might be interested in checking out HughesNet. For the longest I have been looking for satellite internet service that is compatible with my personal needs. The best part is no dial up or logging on and no monies up front. Thank goodness! Ok, let me back up and tell you what HughesNet is.
Hughes Net uses satellite technology, not your phone line, to give you a super-fast, always-on Internet connection. I don't know about you but with a household of 5 my phone line cannot be tied up. Now there are two different plans, the business plan, which is the Professional Service plan that downloads speeds up to 1 Mbps and upload speeds up to 200 Kbps. Windows, Mac, it doesn't matter it's all compatible. It's no hassle for ordering or setting up. You can do it all online. Now there is 2 plans for the business. It’s office speed which is the Elite and Elite Plus for Business Class. The office speed Elite is good enough for me because my business is still rather small and up coming. What are your internet needs? To me, as long as it’s cost efficient, convenient and compatible with my current computer then what’s there to lose. How many services can you set up online? With no monies upfront! I cannot stress that enough!! You also have the freedom to pay with 2 payment options. Options are unheard of when it comes to internet. It’s usually a “take it as it comes” deal. I love the fact that there are 5 different speeds that are right for me and my needs and usage. Oh and the best plan is not necessarily the most expensive plan. Each plan is designed to fit the needs of you and your home lifestyle. Even for the pre-teen whose a internet pro, or the elderly who might be a little intimidated by the internet. There is also a plan design for the true surfer.
HughesNet comes with it’s on personalized satellite dish so it will not be used with any other. Nor will it be billed jointly with any other satellite services you might own. I’m not the brightest when it comes to reading technology and setting up/hooking up services. But HughesNet will mail you out the information packet so that you can get all the questions you need answered. Everything to the plans, speeds, how it works and why to choose HughesNet. I could go on and on about the services but I think you should try it for yourselves. Give them a call toll free at 1-888-892-2434 or check them out online. Be sure to reply to this post the minute you try Hughes Net and tell me how it works for you!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


Lets be honest. Some woman walk into a marriage thinking they can change that man, and men walk into it thinking/hoping that woman will never change. They are both equally wrong. Why would you want to change someone. Them being who they are is what drew you to them, its what attracted you. And why would you want to be with someone hoping that they never change? With change comes growth. We all do it and if one mate changes and the other doesn't, then we are what the bible considers unevenly yoked. I hear from a lot of woman how they prayed to God that their man becomes this, or does that. Don't you know that you must be careful of what you pray for? Is it possible that you are the one that needs to meet him halfway or maybe you need to change? Just because you want someone to be something does not mean you should go casting requests to God when you don't know His plan. Pray that the change comes in His time and according to His will.
Even with personal change, be careful of what you pray for. Ask God for Him to reveal to you the person He has you destined to be. Ask how to be a better you? Ask for guidance and direction.
We all must change and we should embrace it..but let it take its coarse unless God says otherwise.

Monday, August 4, 2008


Why on earth can't I go to sleep like normal people? Every night I'm up till 5-6am, even when I can't blame my 6month old. The nights that I'm not acting like a kid by staying up watching tv and surfing the net I lay in bed and slumber does not take me over. Hubby works from 7pm-7am, like a nut I'm up when he gets home. He thinks I got up early to make him breakfast, such a good wife. He just recently found out that all that time I'm awake! 2-3 hours a night I'll get. Go to bed about 6-8am and that's about it. He says I'm stressed..I don't think so. He asks what am I doing up so late, definitely not having any "CONFESSIONS OF A LATE NIGHT PHONE CONVERSATION" like my fellow best blogger, nice read by the way. So whats the deal. Nite Q don't work!! Showers wake me up and my 6month old wont let me relax in the tub long enough. Then when I do fall into slumber I am easily awaken! My ex told me that I'm paranoid. No way, not me. Then I'm soooooo into the court shows I'll get up at 9 fixing breakfast and watching tv..knowing darn well I need to be sleep. I need a job..I plan on going back to school..that'll fix me!! Someone help me sleep..any suggestions??

After diagnosing myself I have come up with the thought, I dont wanna sleep. My day is consumed of other people so once they are asleep I need my me time..and I don't care if I grt it at 2am-7..but thats still kinda drastic..doncha think?

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

24 Hours

If you had only 24 hours left to live, how would you spend it?
With family and friends? Getting back at a someone who did you wrong?
Would you spend it in prayer, asking for forgiveness, righting all wrongs?
Would you weep, would you mourn? Demand answers? Kick and scream or embrace
it with open arms? Are you ready to leave this world and travel the unknown?
Are you sure of where you will end up when our Savior returns? How would you
spend your last 24 hours?

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Get Paid!

Need to ease the gas crisis or get a little extra grocery money? Ok ya'll I have the help. (Don't quit your day job though) Cash crate pays you money to do surveys. It's their way of marketing to get you to buy their products. The catch is they will wave money in your face because they are sooo sure you will love their product/offer that you will try it and tell all of your friends. I will admit some offers are nice but I'm doing it for the money only. Tell your friends and give them your url link and start making a few bucks off of them as well. It might not pay you rent but it could pay for your gas for the entire month if you get your referrals to help. Check it out. Read the Q's & A's and join the community forum for tips and help. http://cashcrate.com/621042

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


My mom and I were talking about how we all have issues/strongholds that we need to take to the alter. Some of us may not know it or choose not to believe it but there is something in our lives that prevent maximum growth. It could be something as small as not following a task through or having too many tasks on your plate at once! Nevertheless we must realize what they are and work towards releasing it. It starts with taking self-inventory and wanting to reach your full potential. Next you have to seek the help/advice you need to accomplish and release, whether it be a friend, counselor, or pastor. The enemy finds a way to kill, steal and destroy all that's in his path. The smallest things could have the biggest adverse effect on you and how you handle certain situations. Waking up a noon everyday or skipping breakfast might seem small or unimportant, but those two things have negative strongholds that could be preventing your maximum growth and potential. The saying, 'don't sweat the small stuff', is not a quote you should follow in this case. It's the small stuff that satan uses to destroy or simply use as a weight in our lives. Make a change, sweat even the small stuff and realize what is your strongholds!


God never meant for life to be stressful and undesirable. We know that satan came to kill, steal, and destroy. But Jesus came so that we may have life and life more abundantly, so with that being said, enjoy every part of your life. We all have that task or two that we hate to do. Is it house work, errands or going to work? Why do we approach tasks with such humdrum and animosity? Did you know that you can enjoy even the unpleasurables? The first thing we must do is embrace the thought and claim it. Change your mindset. Go into that tasks expecting something great! Expect a word from God while sweeping, working, driving, etc! Not only will you get that word from God you are seeking, it will also make that unpleasureable task somewhat enjoyable!

Monday, July 21, 2008


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Monday, July 14, 2008


This is Crown Fountain at Millenium Park. It's a great place for children of all ages! The faces are of local Chicagers. Hope to see you here in 09!

Take a look at Fantasia and Jennifer Hudsons performance and the fireworks grand finale!
"> During The Taste, vendors and patriots come from all over Illinois to advertise their restaurant or just simply eat at The Taste. It is great advertisement and exposure and the variety of cuisines are great! Take a look at the massive crowd! I always have a hard time coming back to Atlanta after this event. It doesn't compare.

The Chicago Tribune did a preview of different foods at The Taste of Chicago. Outside of the regular pizza, corn on the cob, turkey leg, shrimp etc, they previewed a few of the more exotic non traditional foods. Click the link to check some of the dishes out.

Saturday, June 28, 2008


Sorry for the hiatus. I have so much going on, my mind and time is far from free. My vaca and packing to move came all at one time and it is overwhelming. I'm just about done. This vaca will be very needed! Just a short bio of whats going on my way. I will return with some pics and new interesting profound things to say...lol..I'll be leaving Monday 7-1 and will return Monday 7-8. Talk to you all later!!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008






















Monday, June 16, 2008


Are you in transition? How do you know? If you agree that you are a different person than you were a few years ago, but have yet to arrive to becoming what you are destined to become, you might say you are in transition. Transition does not come easy or without regrets. For the most part, we aren't even trying to change, sometimes it just happens. The world spins just as life does and we are forever evolving. For those Faith believers, transition is a spiritual path. It's the journey of taking the road to Christ, and the steps in a positive direction. People of the world might not experience many levels of transition. For them it might stop and hault and a certain plato. But those of faith, our transition is never over. We are constantly moving, progressing, searching and hopefully getting closer and closer to the Kingdom of God.

But let's say your transition has not been positive, and you have been places you regret. You might want to go backwards and hope to start again. But you must remember, as long as you continue to evolve and move there is hope. It's when you are not in transit that should cause you concern. Keep moving and pressing towards the mark. Even if you fall a few steps, it's ok, dust off and keep going. No matter how many times you fall, I assure you, you are further ahead now than you were years ago. So embrace your transition. Keep moving towards the right direction. And if you are unsure of the path to take, stop and look at your map (Bible) for direction. For the most part, the correct path is the path less traveled. Remember many are called but few are chosen. So for your sake pick the best path for the ultimate transition!!


At what point do you consider someone your friend? By the length of time you have known them? The things they have done for you or the secrets they have kept? Well my friends are family. No lie, my best friend is my cousin. The one person who is not my fam that I consider my friend has been around for 14yrs. I don't trust easily and find it hard to be what everyone wants me to be. A person has to do more than show themselves friendly. For whatever reason I attracted clingy female friends. And when I had to end it, it was like breaking up with a boyfriend. With that being said, I met my last friend 7yrs ago. This isn't to say I don't have close associates or people I hang out with from time to time, just like everyone can't be your spouse, everyone can NOT be your friend! If you ever catch me out you will find me with either my husband, sisters or my mother. I personally don't believe you must talk with your friend daily to justify your friendship. That's whats great about the 2 friends that I have outside of my family, they know that if it's been 2weeks since we've spoken its no love lost. We can pick up right where we left off. I am not good with the phone. Personally I really don't talk much. I don't find any pleasure in talking to anyone for over 20mins(unless it's during a courtship), Maybe that's bad but its true. If it's not one of the people I've listed above then it's rare if we speak. I will text or email before I will call unless I have to. I have my work buddies, school buddies, chi-town buddies etc. Only 1 has crossed over into my personal life. For the most part they are left in that place.

In any event my friends are my friends because of the things we have been through together, a common bond and the things we've shared, and no less! How do you define your friends?

Thursday, June 12, 2008


I remember when we were so close

we talked all the time

You told me of your dreams and desires

You told me how lonely you were

How you wanted a soulmate

My heart dropped

I thought I were your soulmate

But I loved you sooo much

I brought love your way

You thanked me..

I smiled, I was happy

Your family grew and you had

beautiful babies

Oh how I loved them so

You hit a hard patch in your life

You lost your job, your marriage was strained

I hurt for you, I felt your pain

You cried out to me, I was there for you

I got you a better job, I made your mate more loving

This time you didnt thank me

You took all the credit

I'm loosing my dear friend and

I have to get you back....

That gift from your mate,

that was my idea and you only thank him

The mysterious bonus check and miraculous healing

All me.....

Do you remember that?

I cast satan out of your home and life

I healed your family

I got you that raise


Have you forgotten about me

I miss my friend

I'll never give up on you


Sunday, June 8, 2008


This is my pleasurable work! I love them dearly but they keep me on my toes. My boys are in Chicago. They have been there since May 24 and will return when hubby and I go in July. I miss them but momma needed a break!!

Lets meet Tyler. My soon to be 9yr in July. He is a mild tempered, honor roll and occasionally principal list student. He is the daddy to his younger brother. I can trust him to make cereal and waffles for him and his brother when I know breakfast will not happen, thanks to my lil mama who you will meet soon. Tyler is loved by all but he is starting to display his mean attitude streak that he gets from his daddy. Only the Ga. family knows of it, but now his Chicago MiMa (grandmother) has experienced it as well. He loves skate boarding, play station and football. I'm sure you can tell. I had to get this picture of him pretending to be a QB. He stuffed shirts in his shoulders! Can't you tell they are big for a 9yr old? lol

Lets meet Justin. He is 3 going on 10! He loves everyone! He would tell me everyone that he loved everyday. He is joined to the hip of Tyler and the protector of lil mama. Very out spoken but loving. He does not play. He has told me in the most sincere voice, "mommy I don't have to go to bed." It was so genuine without attitude I couldn't even be mad. I just had to explain what mommy says goes. He's an avid teeth brusher and hates getting ready for bed. You have to take his clothes off sometimes while he is sleep if you want peace. He is also a night owl..he can stay up till 2-3am with the best of them.

Last but not least, Morgan. BKA lil mama, Mo-Mo. She will be 5 months on 6-17. She is spoiled, and I promise she came out that way. Her first day of life, she did not want to sleep alone in the baby bed at the hospital. My baby has had stomach issues, she was gasy and threw up everything that went down. She has been on 4 different milks and has acid reflux. And suffered from constipation at 2 days old!! So needless to say she had some issues that would make any mom or dad spoil their baby. She is also like her brother and can stay up with the best of them. From 5pm to 5am. Jesus help


Friday, June 6, 2008


I always denied our relationship. I never really loved you. My family warned me about you, but hey it's nothing serious. I'm just having fun. We did have some good times, so I thought. On the outside I appeared to be fine. I looked ok. But there was something missing inside, and when I would search myself you would tell me "it's nothing". For some reason our good times aren't so good anymore. You are there for the parties, drinking listening to music. You were always there for my arguments, hurt and pain. I started to wonder, were you the cause. Truth be told I knew you weren't the one for me but I couldn't deny a good time. My life started spinning out of control. I've experienced sooo much. Death of family, death of relationships......You smirked. You told me you were my friend and that you were the only one that actually cared for me. I look back and realize you didn't care. You could careless. You encouraged the anger, grudge, partying, pre-marital sex. You knew I wanted to wait. You knew how to lure me. The more I think about it, my family was soooo right. Momma knows best. So as of right now you can have all of your hiphop CD's back, your movies, and all the medicine you encouraged me to take for an illness I dont even have!! Give me back my Bible that you claim you didn't have but I found under your dirty pile. I want to be happy. Live again, love again, and I will without you.


Tuesday, June 3, 2008


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