Wednesday, November 25, 2009

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Look into my Eyes (repost)

Off and on throughout my life, I've dealt with insecurities and the feeling of self-consciousness. I now am able to see that all the things I was insecure about or self conscious about are no longer a factor. Not because I feel confident about these plagues, but because I know who I am in HIM and whose I am. It is not important at the end of the day. So I've learned to just be happy in the skin I'm in. I have grown content with my issues. I still have them, but they no longer have me. Today I was hit again with them, but the love of GOD quickly helps me to cope. Here's what I wrote in my time of pain.

If you look into my eyes

you will find a young lady who has the ability

to laugh hysterically and cry uncontrollably

all in a day

You will find the jokester and life of the party

amongst her circle

Look into my eyes and you will find

I'm a mother, wife and friend

someone who puts others before her

loves those who angered her

befriends those who are different from her

brings those to tears in laughter

warms hearts with compassion and sincerity

but look a little deeper

You will find a young girl who still seeks approval

who's pain is deep and tears are shallow

but look a little deeper and you will find

the contentment of my present

the excitement of my future

the pain of my past

look a little deeper and you will find a young lady

who loves people

but wants to be alone (still tryin to figure that one out)

you will see a mother, wife and friend

deal with the curses of MS daily but ignore it

and keep it moving

you will find someone who will love so hard

til' it hurts

who has dealt with her own insecurities

not big enough, not tall enough and yes

not dark enough

Looking into my eyes will tell you

where I've been

the path I've followed

and pain I've endured

but look into my heart and you will find

where I'm headed

the happiness I' ve felt

and the journey I'm seeking

Look into my eyes......

My Chi-Town Stories....scary and sad!!

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

At Peace

6 years ago yesterday, Nov. 18, I lost my nephew to violence. He was only 22 at the time. God gives us peace in different ways. HE helps us to cope in whatever way we can, just to get through. Read how God worked with me in my nephew's guestbook. It was written for his birthday last year.

May 25, 2008

Ok, I thought time heals all wounds? That statement does not hold true for me. I thought the only pain I would endure was the pain of knowing you are not here. However, that pain has now magnified. Not only are you not here, I'm still in shock and confused. True the needle stick is not as painful, but the depth of it hurts all the same. I shed another tear for you last night. I remember when I first heard the news it was surreal. Unbelievable. 2 weeks before the funeral I had 5 dreams that you came back!! And for whatever reason it gave me comfort and peace. In my own warped mind, I thought it would happen. Seriously. I looked forward to the funeral because I didn't believe it. The sunday before the funeral I was at church hearing about the ones in the bible that were raised from the dead. I held on to that, just knowing that would happen. During the whole funeral I kept saying, get up! Get up! I couldn't pay attention to the service because I just knew you would get up. Praying and hoping that God would give the pastors power to make you get up! I told God if you did, I would not be afraid and that HE would get all praise and worship. But at the burial it hit. This was for real. You were not going to get up. That was the first time I almost had a panic attack. I think a part of me was loosing it. I still had dreams once or twice a month that you came back, and you were telling us how you felt different, and you were hungry. We were all hugging you and thanking God you were back. I had to get a grip. I prayed and asked God what does these dreams mean. The same kind of dream. I got peace when I realized that you were ok. The happiness and cheer we had when you came back, is the happiness and cheer that is happening for you in heaven. I have peace that you are ok. Not to worry about you. And the minute I stopped worrying, and came to that conclusion, the dreams stopped, the weekly tears stopped. God was telling me something. You will GET UP! We will see you again and it feels right around the corner. Finally my heart is at peace and I can rest. I will see you again!! I love you more than you knew.Weeping my endure for a night but joy comes in the morning!

Love Tia

Friday, November 13, 2009

Loud Silence

The loudest words spoken are the ones unheard

The ones that start with a kiss and end with a hug

The look in your eyes, the touch of your embrace

Nothing much has to be said, your spirit speaks volumes

Your silence is loud, your look is deafening

I hear your touch

I hear your silent tears

I hear your pain

While your words are kind and loving

Your silence is passionate,

Your silence is fearful,

Your silence is love

From your silence I can see your heart

No words are ever needed, I'm listening to your heart.


I've gotten some hate mail from a certain reader telling me if I don't post, I can no longer stop by his page. How rude!! But I know the truth!
I've started to realize maybe I'm not the writter I thought I was. I have 5 drafts from things I would start and were unable to finish. I need motivation!!! Inspiration!!!
I think when I was hurting I had a lot to say, but now that I'm happy, nothing! lol. I'm starting to realize that I am an emtional writer. I can get down when it's dear to me, but if I can careless, it starts to show in my writings, or lack there of.
This was just a lil something to let my blog fam know that I have not left, I'm just in a blank moment right now.
Ok, I challenge myself to write even if I have nothing to say. Let's see what happens. You asked for it!!!!! lol