Opening Up....

Man... we all have those memories that we will NEVER forget. Those moments that change us forever. In July for the past 3yrs, I've silently replayed 3 days that I will never forget. The day my life changed, the day before it changed and the day I was rocked to my core.

But Today.... I will share.
Today July 24 is a very special heavenly birthday. My mother-in-love, 2nd moms birthday! Her life and passing has changed me forever.
The 1st pic in the yellow was july 1, 2017, the day before she passed. Carefree and happy.. I had no clue what awaited the next day. I was in Chicago about to meet with Anjee and Latoya for our annual girls dinner. I ended the day with Tanesha. These 3 ladies helped me get thru what was about to be the worst moments in my life.
The 2nd pic in pink was my birthday. July 18. 2017. The first time I really cried. I mean truly cried. I was depressed, mourning and experiencing chest pain from grief. My friend Katrina was in town and wanted to take me out for my birthday. What she didn't know is I made every excuse not to go.  I was too hurt to celebrate. How could I celebrate my life when one of the women I loved loss theirs? I broke down before and after this picture. But no one knew.
I used to pray for the day that I wouldn't remember, but also feared for the day when I would forget. Life's not the same, I think differently and move differently...not bad, just........different.
I've grown a lot. Im more open and vulnerable. I say what I feel and I'm true to myself. By doing this, I've been able to allow people to be there for me. You find out who your friends are when you let them in. I pray that God gives you ways to cope with life's challenges. He did it for me by giving me amazing family and friends that were instrumental to my healing and for that I am grateful.