Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Look into my Eyes (repost)

Off and on throughout my life, I've dealt with insecurities and the feeling of self-consciousness. I now am able to see that all the things I was insecure about or self conscious about are no longer a factor. Not because I feel confident about these plagues, but because I know who I am in HIM and whose I am. It is not important at the end of the day. So I've learned to just be happy in the skin I'm in. I have grown content with my issues. I still have them, but they no longer have me. Today I was hit again with them, but the love of GOD quickly helps me to cope. Here's what I wrote in my time of pain.




If you look into my eyes

you will find a young lady who has the ability

to laugh hysterically and cry uncontrollably

all in a day

You will find the jokester and life of the party

amongst her circle

Look into my eyes and you will find

I'm a mother, wife and friend

someone who puts others before her

loves those who angered her

befriends those who are different from her

brings those to tears in laughter

warms hearts with compassion and sincerity


but look a little deeper


You will find a young girl who still seeks approval

who's pain is deep and tears are shallow

but look a little deeper and you will find

the contentment of my present

the excitement of my future

the pain of my past

look a little deeper and you will find a young lady

who loves people

but wants to be alone (still tryin to figure that one out)

you will see a mother, wife and friend

deal with the curses of MS daily but ignore it

and keep it moving

you will find someone who will love so hard

til' it hurts

who has dealt with her own insecurities

not big enough, not tall enough and yes

not dark enough

Looking into my eyes will tell you

where I've been

the path I've followed

and pain I've endured

but look into my heart and you will find

where I'm headed

the happiness I' ve felt

and the journey I'm seeking

Look into my eyes......

6 comments:

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

Your introduction paragraph has my name written all over it. Once I became saved, I finally realized and accepted that this is how God made me and that there is no other Woman in the world like me. I am comfortable in my skin. Stretch marks, skinny legs, dad's nose and forehead, big hands and baby love handles (LOL)

Love, peace and blessings to you.
Have a HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Tia's Real Talk said...

@ Free- And even after all of that, you are still beautiful!!!

Solomon said...

I really could relate to this one also. I have been through much tribulation, and it only made me stronger.

OMG!30soon said...

but look a little deeper
You will find a young girl who still seeks approval
who's pain is deep and tears are shallow




WOW SO DEEP AND TRUE, THIS STATEMENT RIGHT HERE IS LIKE THE WORDS FELL OUT OF MY HEAD. i LIKE UR SPOT, IF I CANT APPRECIATE ANYTHING ELSE I LOVE HONESTY!!

Blinders Off said...

You will see a mother, wife and friend deal with the curses of MS daily but ignore it and keep it moving...

Tia because of God's Grace WE are able to keep it moving living with MS. I love your post.

Tia's Real Talk said...

@ Blinders off - Hey hon, how are you? I've missed you! Hope all is well. My cell phone signature says, "blessed by HIS grace and mercy". That's the only reason we all are alive!!! Thanks for the love. How are your beautiful girls doing?