This year has been one of great testimonies and grieve stricken trials, but through it all, GOD has kept me. It's amazing how I can laugh and cry all in the same hour. A host of emotions that I can't even bare to understand.
My plate is so full, so many expectations, goals, dreams to live for and some to make come true for others. It's an honor to have those looking to you for answers and success. But it is also a challenge. I have chosen this life and sometimes I question my choices.
Trying to be a good wife, trying to be successful so that I can do for my family what most will deem as impossible. Trying to give my kids a FANTASTIC childhood. My childhood was AMAZING and sometimes I fear that I'm falling short. My childhood is a hard shoe to fill, and I want my kids to have what I had and more!!
If I tried to convey everything I felt into this post, it would be a 10 page spread. So I guess in the condensed version, I have a lot of weight on my shoulders. Sometimes I welcome it with open arms and other times I want to go into a quiet room and cry/scream! All I can do is pray that I'm heading the direction that GOD has set forth and that my will is HIS WILL.
Many wish to walk in my shoes, but are you willing to walk a mile??? You want my triumph but are you ready to take on my trail?