What is Fear??

Fear is carrying a beautiful baby girl for 9 months, only to not see her face.

Fear is trying to be strong for your family, because if you breakdown, they breakdown.

Fear is wondering if your condition is a deal-breaker for your husband.

Fear is the confusion and pain that is on the faces of your children when you try to explain what's wrong with mommy.

Fear is letting a video do the talking because you cant.

Fear is wanting to be back to the old you, even though she was broken too.

Fear is losing your independence.

Fear is having your independence taken away.

Fear is smiling and saying "I'm fine" when you're not.

Fear can be a scapegoat or misplaced emotions. Fear can be confusion...but in this case, I confused it with STRENGTH.

Random Thoughts

We never realize how all of the things we put so much stock into really doesn't matter. We measure success by the wrong scale. 'Things' don't matter. Money doesn't matter. Degrees...they don't matter. It's not until you are at the end of your rope, it's not until you wonder how you will make ends meet, when your money is funny and your change is strange. When you wish that you can provide more, have more..do more. But even in the midst of your struggles, when you can look at the faces of your children and know that they are happy. Even thru the struggles and lack of, they are happy!! It's at that point that nothing else matters and it's not so bad afterall. When your children are happy, you have made it! Now that's true success!!